ma heart belong to you

Monday, April 9, 2007

i received a friendster message from bob(x).. saying tat he wants ma number.. i was shocked cos hes the one who dump me and now why does he wants ma number.. i was so deeply hurt when he left me.. so i reply back.. i asked him wat does he wants from me..?? i stick with him even though i hate his concept.. hes a skinhead.. haiz.. im happy now.. and in fact im much more happy with ma dear kamal.. i cant bear to lose a kind of man who is everything to me.. truthly.. from the bottom of my heart, i love him so very damn much.. nowadays i always missed him.. its ok if i missed him a little.. but.. i missed him like crazy.. you peeps can say tat now i really have ma serious relationship with him.. the kind of love feeling of mine for him is way out different from the others(xS)..

meet ma dear juz now.. hehehe.. he gave me a love letter.. WOW!!! first time seh a guy gave me love letter.. romantic kan2.. hehe.. when i read it.. i was soon gonna be in tears.. but i control it since he ask me not to cry when i read the love note.. its our 2 mthniversary today.. i was so damn happy today.. but a little pissed off cos of ma IDIOTIC EX.. but still it wont effect ma happy mood.. hahaha.. now i feel much more better.. so damn happy till i cant put it to words.. hehehe...

btw i wanna share a story wit you peeps about ma cuzz, mira. i called her juz now.. juz wanna update on her.. its been sometime i last talked to her.. she wanted me to noe something.. about her and her friends who been chased by an animal.. she ask me to guessed wat animal chased after them.. so i gussed la.. dogs.. komondo lizard.. birds.. till i give up cos i dun really like to play guessing game.. but strange she keep on laughing and laughing.. so since i wanna be happy.. i also laugh.. hahaha.. crazy me.. den she told me the answer.. "Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! " it was a monkey!! OMG!! the creature who chased after them is a monkey.. i laughed till i cried.. i cannot take it.. juz imagine their faces.. mesti buruk nye.. kanchong to the MAX!! hehehe.. *giggle* ok lets stop laughing.. even i type also i laugh.. hehehe..

yeah.. i so damn happy.. think i cannot sleep tonite.. i noe i noe.. you peeps must wanna noe why im so happy bout.. hehehe.. well.. heres wat i can tell you.... " Its For Me To Noe And Its For You To Find Out!! " chow!!

7:31 PM

Friday, April 6, 2007

the guys in this video is playing a game.. some sort like true
and dare.. but whoever got a different card from the others..
he will have to do wat the paper stated them to do.. the place
is located in the libary.. so they will have to keep quiet all the
time.. have fun watching the video.. toodles..

11:44 PM

i juz received an email from a friend of mine.. and i really have to shared it with you peeps.. i was disguted when i read the mail.. it came with an attachment as well.. take a look at it..

(this man is slicing up the brain)

(he clean the dead baby)

(he cut the dead baby into different part)

and the worst off all...

(he ate the grilled dead baby!!!!)

i cant believed theres a kind of person who would eat a dead baby.. whats happening to people in this world?? are there no more food that they have to resort to this kind of way?? wat this man is eating is wat he is when he was a baby.. how could he be so heartless.. it really break ma heart to see a baby who is already dead been treated this way.. may god pusnished whoever is doing the same as wat these man did..

10:29 PM

today i did'nt visit ma uncle.. i need to babysit ma 2 sibling and also ma cousin.. mira and hafiz.. they are not allowed to visit ma uncle since the sickness is easy to passed from one person to another person.. i cant even visit ma uncle.. thought of going.. its been a long time since i last visit him.. well i juz need to find the right time to visit him.. and also.. kamal told me tat his grandma was admitted to the hospital as well.. thought of visit his grandma also.. but since i was already given a job and tat is to babysit the kids i cant even visit anione now.. i pray to god tat ma uncle and kamal grandma is doing fine.. Amin..

at home..

today is Good Friday.. its holiday.. so theres alot of nice movies to watch.. we juz chill around at home.. eating snacks.. laugh alot.. thanks alot to ma partner in crime and tats mira for making me laugh.. im happy shes here to keep me company.. thanks girl.. love u much2..

now im bored.. gonna call kamal ask bout his grandma.. then im gonna watch tv all the way since i got nothing much to do.. till here peeps.. have a great weekend..

xoxo sheila xoxo

6:38 PM

Thursday, April 5, 2007

lots of things has been happening lately.. just now i received a bad news from ma aunt saying that ma uncle who is ma mom 1st brother is warded to the changi hospital.. doctor says tat he suffering kind of sickness which called TB.. i dun really noe what it is.. but the most scary is when the doctor says that they suspect that ma uncle has cancer.. i still cant belived it.. they only suspect but they still waiting for the result which ma uncle has went for the test.. i really pray hard that it turn out to be a negative.. i dun want to lose another family member since late aunt jang have left us..

Next..

went down to ATM machine to check ma pay.. was so shocked to see the total amount still the same.. cant wait any longer so i called ryanne(supervisor which i dun noe that she's ma boss).. i try to call her at the shop since she dun wanna answer ma phone call when i called her phone.. so yes she did answer the calls.. i try to be calm and ask her nicely.. "why i dun received ma pay yet?" and she told me tat i was on job training so they wont pay me.. i was damn frustrated.. but then suddendly she ask me whether i knew a girl by the name Lina.. the only girl by the name Lina that i knew is only Kamal and Boboy friend.. so i suspect it was Lina that she was talking about since i knew that Lina has werking at the outlet before.. so i say yes i knew her.. and Ryanne told me tat Lina has been bad mouth about me.. but i cant belived it cos i only knew Lina for only 1 day.. Ryanne told me everything bout Lina.. Everything!! All the bad stuff about Lina.. told her tat i dun want to talk bout Lina.. all i want to know is why i dun get ma pay.. i really had a tiff with Ryanne since i cant hold it animore.. i shouted like i dun care bout people around me.. i juz cant hold it animore.. i need to let out the hot steam in me.. i juz need to shout..
i was totally sad and dissapointed and most of all ANGRY!!!

got home.. msg kamal and ask for Lina number.. kamal ask me what for i want Lina number.. so i told him bout everything that happend just now.. i juz want to noe was it really that Lina bad mouth bout me..

talk to Lina.. told her everything.. from A to Z.. she was kind of surprised.. but wat she told me was kind of right also.. why would she bad mouth me since she dun really know much bout me..
but i could sense the way she talk was like she hiding something from me.. i cant trust them both.. i dun even know both of them well.. i dun really wanna go on bout this.. so all i could do is juz accept wateva tat happend to me.. all the bad mouth thing.. i cant force people to speak wat they have done.. so i juz letting it go.. it does not bring good to everyone..

im totally got no mood for everything.. i feel really down.. need someone.. i need a hug right now.. a hug tat can make me feel at ease..

10:32 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

it has been 3 days since i did'nt update ma blog.. since i started werking.. i feel so tired when i came back home.. tired to update.. now i make time to update juz for u peeps to read it.. for the past 3 days since i started werking.. i been so busy.. alot of thing i got to learned.. like for example looking for the shoe, where it has been put at, different colour,size,shape, and also the price.. it look easy.. but if you try to do it you will also become confused like me.. hehehe..

after werking life now.. i miss everyone.. like ma close one.. kamal and amira.. really miss them damn much.. i will make time for you guys ok..

now i wanna sleep.. tommorrow wanna wake up at 6.50am and also 8.30am.. haiz.. ok den.. im signing out.. chow..!!

12:14 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

im starting werking tommorrow.. will be werking at tampines century square.. at retail outlet, Seven, as sales assistant.. from 11.30am to 9.30pm.. at last im werking.. kindda happy.. hehehe.. but still.. ma life will changed if im werking.. as in i wont have time for everyone.. no more family gathering.. even will be difficult to meet kamal.. sense that he kind of sad.. but im not sure.. hes weird today.. told me that he's weak all over of his body.. haiz.. what shud i do then?? i still wanna meet him.. but how?? i will be busy with working now tat im scared i dun have time for him.. cant expect him to come down to tampines from marsiling.. its damn far.. 1 week and i only have 1 day off.. i really dun noe how to devide the time for family and kamal.. what shud i do then?? im tottally lost..

9:00 PM