lots of things has been happening lately.. just now i received a bad news from ma aunt saying that ma uncle who is ma mom 1st brother is warded to the changi hospital.. doctor says tat he suffering kind of sickness which called TB.. i dun really noe what it is.. but the most scary is when the doctor says that they suspect that ma uncle has cancer.. i still cant belived it.. they only suspect but they still waiting for the result which ma uncle has went for the test.. i really pray hard that it turn out to be a negative.. i dun want to lose another family member since late aunt jang have left us..
Next..
went down to ATM machine to check ma pay.. was so shocked to see the total amount still the same.. cant wait any longer so i called ryanne(supervisor which i dun noe that she's ma boss).. i try to call her at the shop since she dun wanna answer ma phone call when i called her phone.. so yes she did answer the calls.. i try to be calm and ask her nicely.. "why i dun received ma pay yet?" and she told me tat i was on job training so they wont pay me.. i was damn frustrated.. but then suddendly she ask me whether i knew a girl by the name Lina.. the only girl by the name Lina that i knew is only Kamal and Boboy friend.. so i suspect it was Lina that she was talking about since i knew that Lina has werking at the outlet before.. so i say yes i knew her.. and Ryanne told me tat Lina has been bad mouth about me.. but i cant belived it cos i only knew Lina for only 1 day.. Ryanne told me everything bout Lina.. Everything!! All the bad stuff about Lina.. told her tat i dun want to talk bout Lina.. all i want to know is why i dun get ma pay.. i really had a tiff with Ryanne since i cant hold it animore.. i shouted like i dun care bout people around me.. i juz cant hold it animore.. i need to let out the hot steam in me.. i juz need to shout..
i was totally sad and dissapointed and most of all ANGRY!!!
got home.. msg kamal and ask for Lina number.. kamal ask me what for i want Lina number.. so i told him bout everything that happend just now.. i juz want to noe was it really that Lina bad mouth bout me..
talk to Lina.. told her everything.. from A to Z.. she was kind of surprised.. but wat she told me was kind of right also.. why would she bad mouth me since she dun really know much bout me..
but i could sense the way she talk was like she hiding something from me.. i cant trust them both.. i dun even know both of them well.. i dun really wanna go on bout this.. so all i could do is juz accept wateva tat happend to me.. all the bad mouth thing.. i cant force people to speak wat they have done.. so i juz letting it go.. it does not bring good to everyone..
im totally got no mood for everything.. i feel really down.. need someone.. i need a hug right now.. a hug tat can make me feel at ease..
